I'm fallen into a lull, I know what I want to write but... I don't really know how to go about doing it.
These days I've been meeting friends, doing chores, packing, meeting friends., learning to drive. I guess I want to make my life as productive as I can.
I was looking through the photos I've taken, well, those that I still have all these years. Pictures of places I've been, food I've eaten... and most importantly people I've met and loved.
It was then I realize just how fragile relationships can be, and no, I'm not even talking about love.
Friends that were with you a year ago might be accquaintances now. People that call you their "best friend" might not answer your messages. There are people who just fade out simply because of the distances between them and you. People move on, including me.
Regardless, I've made some shitty choices and in turn burnt a lot of bridges. Most of them was me being scared and running away from them, that was my defense mechnism from people that I couldn't face anymore.
For that, I'm sorry.
I like to think that I've done all I wanted to do, at least those I can think of.
Up the CN tower, watched a few Blue Jays games, watched one Raptors game, watched no leafs game, went to lakeshore, went to Eaton centre, stood outside the AGO, went to chinatown, went to koreantown (yonge & finch), laughed at the thought of going to the children's musuem.
Failed a course, 100 a course, 80 a course playing Pokemon in the back. Not paying a library fine for 2 years. Overnight in DC, overnight in MC.
I thank all my friends, my close friends, my accquaintances.
Tomorrow marks the start of something new. 5 chapters, 5 years.
See you guys on the other side.
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