友情

一个人在一身中,　能遇到多少人.

在这些人当中,　又有多少能成为朋友.

在这些朋友里,　有多少能成为好朋友,　让你能与他们分享你的秘密,　心情,　你的喜怒哀乐,　悲欢离合.



珍惜朋友.

希望你早日好起来.

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缘分这东西.

感情

Men and women.

Everytime when I think I understand relationships, I get hit a hardball and go back to the drawing board. Somehow, I believe that women and men need each other more than they think they do. Not that women need men more or men need women more. On a pure relationship level (aka no sexual relations & monetary concerns), I think everyone of us just wants company, someone that goes deeper than friends.... 陪伴. 有人陪伴着, 分享着不快乐与快乐的事情. Though it definitely gets more complicated when all of those are involved (uh duh). I also believe that there are times where we need to be alone to think, to brood over past thoughts, take stock of our life, what went wrong and where to go from that point onwards.

What exactly constitutes a working relationship? I have yet to discover that answer for myself. Coming from me, my family, all the past relationships I have had, I can't see past all the smoke and mirrors. I however, saw some of that around me, friends who have been dating for a long time. Though then, how many of them are truly happy? 有多少的感情只剩下容忍, 那能容忍多久呢? Some answers came to me when I heard of friends breaking up. Even for myself... Yet, I had a shock when I saw one relationship that broke, one that I thought was going to last forever. Its weird considering how I remembered everything from 4 years ago that I did / didn't do. I wish each of them well.

新鸳鸯蝴蝶梦 - 黄安
由来只有新人笑
有谁听到旧人哭
爱情两个字 好辛苦
是要问一个明白
还是要装作糊涂
知多知少难知足


Yup, I'm definitely bitter. Still, I don't think I have given up relationships. I do believe that I have a better picture with each relationship I go through. With each relationship there is something that I could take away from. Hopefully, I'll complete the picture soon enough.
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I discovered this after watching Scrubs, Season 5 Episode 13 "My Five Stages". Something that I actually find to be true (at least for me). Depression, Acceptance.

I've just realized that I'm not anywhere close to that.

深情

Insecurities suck. These are times that you are just too afraid to lose someone. When you realise that you would do everything for her.

But I've learnt something, you should keep your insecurities in. Because you also know, that person loves you unconditionally. Its just that there are also times when she is unable to provide the same to you, be she is occupied/sad/angry herself.

Someone once told me, Keep Your Ground, perserve, and you get over the obstacle. Quash insecurties.

Then, there are times where she would be insecure as well. Give her care, love, and warmth, even though she might not respond. But she knows in her heart, that you love her. Remind her that you are there for her, you'll catch her when she falls, you'll help her up when she trips, you'll soothe her temper.

Love is give and take, you give some, you get some. I've finally learnt that. =)

末情

无底洞

有时寂寞太沉重
身边彷佛只是观众
你的感受没有人懂
难得谁自告奋勇
体 贴让人格外感动
爱上他前后用不到一分钟

嘿～回想恋情的内容
有谁想过有始有终
不过是一时脆弱让人放纵
嘿～

穿梭一段又另一段感情中
爱为何总填不满又掏不空
很快就风起云涌
人 类的心是个无底洞
尝试亲吻尝试拥抱或沟通
没有好感再尝试也没有用
大多数人都相同
喜欢的只是爱情的脸孔

没 有谁背后怂恿
不该爱又爱的冲动
是你害怕孤单而拼命补充

很快就风起云涌
人类的心是个无底洞
尝试亲吻尝试拥 抱或沟通
没有好感再尝试也没有用
大多数人都相同
喜欢的只是爱情的脸孔

说好了再做朋友. 但是我还是没用勇气做出第一步.

还是怕, 怕责怪, 怕面对自己, 怕看到你那悲伤的脸蛋.

曾以为爱情是持久的, 是永恒的.

想象的与感受的, 不同.

开始的时候是甜蜜的, 随时间慢慢变淡, 变酸, 变苦.

刚开始的那份爱情, 荡然无存, 无影无踪.

现在给我的是一种旧朋友的感觉.

有时候打个电话问候问候, 别的时候互不相识.

我. 还没准备好吧.

我始终希望我无意伤害的你, 能够摆脱悲伤.

第一步, 对我来说, 是那么的沉重.

再做朋友, 好吗?

阴天

阴天在不开灯的房间
当所有思绪都一点一点沉淀
爱情究竟是精神鸦片
还是世 纪末的无聊消遣
香烟氲成一滩光圈
和他的照片就摆在手边
傻傻两个人笑的多甜

开始总是分分钟都妙不可言
谁都 以为热情它永不会减
除了激情褪去后的那一点点倦
也许像谁说过的贪得无厌
活该应了谁说过的不知检点
总之那几年感性赢了理性 的那一面

阴天在不开灯的房间
当所有思绪都一点一点沉淀
爱恨情欲里的疑点盲点

呼之欲出那么明显
女孩通通让到一边
这歌里的细微末节就算都体验
若想真明 白真要好几年

回想那一天喧闹的喜宴
耳边响起的究竟是序曲或完结篇
感情不就是你情我愿
最好爱恨扯平两不相欠
感 情说穿了一人挣脱的一人去捡
男人大可不必百口莫辩
女人实在无须楚楚可怜
总之那几年你们两个没有缘

爱情

You Took My Heart Away - Michael Learns To Rock

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hope or dream
Try to dull an inner scream
But you . . . saw me through . . .

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home and now I’m in love

You took my heart away
When my whole world was grey
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it’s cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .

Living in a world so cold
You were there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
And now . . . I ’m in love

You took my heart away
When my whole world was grey
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it’s cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .

Holding your hands
I won’t fear tomorrow
Here where we stand
We never be alone

You took my heart away
When my whole world was grey
You gave me everything and a little bit more
And when it’s cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .
You become the meaning of my life . . .
You become the meaning
You become the meaning of my life . . .

I wished i could say how i feel right now, i just can't describe it.

Leaving, it used to be a simple thing for me. I pack up, then go.

This time, I feel as if i've left something behind, something i really treasure.

Not being able to be by her side makes me sad, not able to hold her close makes me somber.

Not being able to tell her my stories, not able to hear hers as well.

Not being able to walk side by side with her, instead all i have left is myself.

Not being able to tell her how much i love her, how much i miss her.

想你的365天 - 李玟

春风扬起你我的离别
夏雨打湿孤单的屋檐
秋叶飘落思念的红叶
冬雪转眼又是 一年
在想你的三百六十五天
听你我最爱的那首歌
泪总是一不小心翻涌微笑的脸
突然我感觉你没走远

怀里有你紧拥的温度
眼里有你微笑和痛哭
心里有你说过的故事
嗬... 梦里你在回家的路
在想你的三百六十五天
读你写来的每句安慰
爱圈住你我在同一个圆
你的冷热我能感觉
在想你的三百六 十五天
海我多想能看得更远
爱两颗心间不断的长线
我的喜悲都让你包围
怀里有你紧拥的温度
眼里有你微笑和痛哭
心 里有你说过的故事
嗬...梦里你在回家的路

心情

第一次遇见你, 我还以为我在做梦... 那么安静, 但又非常活跃于活动当中....

可惜, 那时后没有近一步的认识你, 可能是我第一个犯的错误....

经过了将近一年的时间, 感觉还是离你很疏远. 许多知道这事情的朋友都叫我行动, 迈出第一步. 这些话我一直放在心中, 始终没有这么做. 心里总是感到害怕, 怕...... 现在也没有用了, 他们的话预言了已经发生的事情. 我只能坐在我的角落, 单独享用.

这一年的疏忽, 也可能是我第二个犯的错误.

现在, 终于到了一个结束.

园游会

"琥珀色黄昏像糖在很美的远方
你的脸没有化装我却疯狂爱上
思念跟影子在傍晚一起 被拉长
我手中那入场圈陪我数羊
薄荷色草地芬芳像风没有形状
我却能够牢记你的气质跟脸庞
冷空气跟琉璃在清晨很有透明感
像 我的喜欢被你看穿
摊位上一朵艳阳
我悄悄出现你身旁
你慌乱的模样我微笑安静欣赏
我顶着大太阳
只想为你撑伞
你 靠在我肩膀深呼吸怕遗忘
因为捞鱼的蠢游戏我们开始交谈
多希望话题不断园游会永不打烊
气球在我手上
我牵着你瞎逛
有 话想对你讲你眼睛却装盲
连蛋糕跟你嘴角果酱我都想要尝
园游会影片在播放这个世界约好一起逛"

诗人

"喜欢上可以在伞里靠近你的雨天
喜欢上可以静静反覆想着你的黑夜
喜欢的感觉就像晒过太阳的棉被
带 着一种温暖的香味
把我紧紧的包围"

看星星, 那是从上次伤害遗留下的事情, 我不知道看有什么用,为什么要看, 但是每天走在回家的路上, 不禁抬头, 在茫茫的黑夜寻找最明亮的一颗.

我总觉得它们散发出一种说不出来的感觉. 很像以前在你身旁和你任何事情一样.

我恨的不是他, 而是自己.

恨我没勇气

恨我没主动

恨我到现在都没让你知道我的感受.

总以为一年前的事情不会再发生, 因为自己长大了. 想的应该会复杂, 会解答一年前的原因, 反省....

到头来还是没有, 我还是原来的我. 原来的我还是停留在一年前, 试图修复我破碎的心, 还在痛恨自己...

渐渐

"渐渐不见你微笑的脸
会不会是你在表演
眼泪干了只是盐
哭过没有感觉"

夜曲

"为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲

纪念我死去的爱情
跟夜风一样的声音
心碎的很好听
手在键盘敲钢琴
我 给的思念太小心
你埋葬的地方就有你
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
而我为你隐姓埋名
在月光下弹琴
对 你心跳的感应
还是如此温热亲近
怀念你那鲜红的唇印"

后悔, 我想连后悔也太迟了吧. 只有安慰的份了吧... 或许安慰也晚了一步...

算了吧... 我告诉自己... 既然以到这里了... 就说再见.

再见. 就两个字, 原本想说的... 就留给自己当回忆... 消失...

黑白画映

"无力抱紧看着又伤心
偶尔想起我爱你
想 追又自己鼓不起勇气
我心中黑白
无力靠近猜测你的心
今夜又会在那里
窗外的风起天下起小雨
我 心中黑白的画映
我无力找到真爱
可怜我只剩下空白
找不到靠近的理由
也只能开不了口
静静的我守在窗口
享受这寂寞
无力证明才让你相信
有个傻子在想你
想你和我有一天相遇
我心中黑白的画映"

小丑鱼

"始终不敢将爱说出口当然没有资格去竞争
恋爱和失恋同时发生怪自己枉费青春
我输得彻底把脸深埋在水里面却还要演好 这一场戏

lady lady one more try 再试着了解我的爱
发不出声音的感慨选择作朋友的无奈
lady lady one more try 提醒我何时该走开
只要你偶尔想起来我就住在那片海"

结束, 是我不想要的结果.

也许未来的我, 会对这些事情, 有一个美好的交代. 直到那个时候, 我就住在那片海.

-return- out

始情

i guess.... there's nothing that i want to say that i can say....

hope this clears some doubts, i can only say sorry, nothing more, nothing less:

小丑鱼 by 罗志祥

我在你身边游来游去我不敢出声看着他亲吻你
眼不能闭看你的唇印还在那里你隔着玻璃所以听不见我在叹息
说不出口的秘密永远活在小小的世界里
仅存一点稀薄的氧气是否够我继续撑下去
这件脱不下来的外衣还是你喜欢的橘我不能确定
是否你曾经注意我的眼泪流在透明的水里

★ lady lady one more try 再试着了解我的爱
发不出声音的感慨选择作朋友的无奈
lady lady one more try 提醒我何时该走开
只要你偶尔想起来我就住在那片海

等我转过身看你眼神才知道自己想得太过天真伤得太深
爱来的时候划破沉闷我早该知道你终究不是我该爱的人
黑暗中两眼无神夜里不再为我开盏灯
始终不敢将爱说出口当然没有资格去竞争
恋爱和失恋同时发生怪自己枉费青春
我输得彻底把脸深埋在水里面却还要演好这一场戏(repeat ★)

那片海眼看就要让我愈来愈远回不来
从此你的不愉快那么遥远谁听你埋怨
再说一遍说一遍 ya...我在你身边给你一点点愉快就
会心甘情愿回到大海
lady lady one more try 再试着了解我的爱
发不出声音的感慨选择作朋友的无奈
lady lady one more try 提醒我何时该走开
只要你偶尔想起来我就住在那片海那片海

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