When I was little I always wondered why everyone is doing what they do. For 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, 360 days a year.
Then through all this 21 years of my life, I've become the same people that I always wondered about.
Every single day.
Wake up at 7:24.
Out the house by 8.
Ride the subway.
Get to work at around 9:15.
Work. Lunch. Work.
Leave at 5:15.
Spend 1 hr and 15 mins on the subway back.
Eat.
A bit of free time.
Sleep.
Everything has become regular. Routine.
It is then that I realized the free time that I've taken for granted at my life as a child is a commodity. What do you do in this free time? Do you spend time reading? Time gaming? Time chatting?
Its a weird feeling that something you had all along can so suddenly be taken away from you, even something so trivial as free time.
看着别人的小孩这么开心的享受童年. 我笑了. 但是, 自己知道, 自己已经不是小孩, 不能再无忧无虑的过着生活了.
这或许就是成长的过程.
Song: 1234 - Feist
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
About Me
Born in Shanghai. Left when I was 6 years old.
Spent the next 10 years of my life in Singapore studying from Grade 1 to Grade 10 (rough translation).
After that, spent 6 months in Alberta doing 2nd semester of Grade 12, graduated with Alberta Diploma.
Graduated with a Bachelor of Mathematics Degree, Honors Computer Science, Business Option Co-operative Program (that was a mouthful).
Spent the next 10 years of my life in Singapore studying from Grade 1 to Grade 10 (rough translation).
After that, spent 6 months in Alberta doing 2nd semester of Grade 12, graduated with Alberta Diploma.
Graduated with a Bachelor of Mathematics Degree, Honors Computer Science, Business Option Co-operative Program (that was a mouthful).
Saturday, April 4, 2009
男人的尊严
最近好多事情发生在我的身旁. 让我想了好久. 一个男人和面子... 有不小的关联.
我这个学期在我身边的人. 他因为经济不景气丢了工作. 刚开始还是为这事而愁, 烦恼. 他的老婆还是非常的支持的. 但是他渐渐的, 渐渐的陷入了一个泥沼. 有时候会为了烧菜这小事生气, 大发雷霆. 我听他老婆说的, 最近他也不忙家务了, 都是她和大儿子一手包办. 她那时候说话有点气愤, 可能她也是有点受不了了.
我还记得听过一句话, 在上海的时候一个广告: "有家的男人真幸福, 养家的男人真辛苦". 呵呵, 以前还不会体会这句话的意思. 现在, 看到这个场景, 深有感触. 做男人还是不简单啊.
当然, 他会熬过去的. 毕竟他不是一个被遗弃的人, 他还有家. 他有一个小儿子能寄托希望. 他天天教他钢琴, 督促他, 甚至有时候还会骂他. 我想, 希望儿子比自己还厉害, 是每个家长的希望吧.
我这个学期在我身边的人. 他因为经济不景气丢了工作. 刚开始还是为这事而愁, 烦恼. 他的老婆还是非常的支持的. 但是他渐渐的, 渐渐的陷入了一个泥沼. 有时候会为了烧菜这小事生气, 大发雷霆. 我听他老婆说的, 最近他也不忙家务了, 都是她和大儿子一手包办. 她那时候说话有点气愤, 可能她也是有点受不了了.
我还记得听过一句话, 在上海的时候一个广告: "有家的男人真幸福, 养家的男人真辛苦". 呵呵, 以前还不会体会这句话的意思. 现在, 看到这个场景, 深有感触. 做男人还是不简单啊.
当然, 他会熬过去的. 毕竟他不是一个被遗弃的人, 他还有家. 他有一个小儿子能寄托希望. 他天天教他钢琴, 督促他, 甚至有时候还会骂他. 我想, 希望儿子比自己还厉害, 是每个家长的希望吧.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
感情
Men and women.
Everytime when I think I understand relationships, I get hit a hardball and go back to the drawing board. Somehow, I believe that women and men need each other more than they think they do. Not that women need men more or men need women more. On a pure relationship level (aka no sexual relations & monetary concerns), I think everyone of us just wants company, someone that goes deeper than friends.... 陪伴. 有人陪伴着, 分享着不快乐与快乐的事情. Though it definitely gets more complicated when all of those are involved (uh duh). I also believe that there are times where we need to be alone to think, to brood over past thoughts, take stock of our life, what went wrong and where to go from that point onwards.
What exactly constitutes a working relationship? I have yet to discover that answer for myself. Coming from me, my family, all the past relationships I have had, I can't see past all the smoke and mirrors. I however, saw some of that around me, friends who have been dating for a long time. Though then, how many of them are truly happy? 有多少的感情只剩下容忍, 那能容忍多久呢? Some answers came to me when I heard of friends breaking up. Even for myself... Yet, I had a shock when I saw one relationship that broke, one that I thought was going to last forever. Its weird considering how I remembered everything from 4 years ago that I did / didn't do. I wish each of them well.
新鸳鸯蝴蝶梦 - 黄安
由来只有新人笑
有谁听到旧人哭
爱情两个字 好辛苦
是要问一个明白
还是要装作糊涂
知多知少难知足
Yup, I'm definitely bitter. Still, I don't think I have given up relationships. I do believe that I have a better picture with each relationship I go through. With each relationship there is something that I could take away from. Hopefully, I'll complete the picture soon enough.
_______________________________
I discovered this after watching Scrubs, Season 5 Episode 13 "My Five Stages". Something that I actually find to be true (at least for me). Depression, Acceptance.
I've just realized that I'm not anywhere close to that.
Everytime when I think I understand relationships, I get hit a hardball and go back to the drawing board. Somehow, I believe that women and men need each other more than they think they do. Not that women need men more or men need women more. On a pure relationship level (aka no sexual relations & monetary concerns), I think everyone of us just wants company, someone that goes deeper than friends.... 陪伴. 有人陪伴着, 分享着不快乐与快乐的事情. Though it definitely gets more complicated when all of those are involved (uh duh). I also believe that there are times where we need to be alone to think, to brood over past thoughts, take stock of our life, what went wrong and where to go from that point onwards.
What exactly constitutes a working relationship? I have yet to discover that answer for myself. Coming from me, my family, all the past relationships I have had, I can't see past all the smoke and mirrors. I however, saw some of that around me, friends who have been dating for a long time. Though then, how many of them are truly happy? 有多少的感情只剩下容忍, 那能容忍多久呢? Some answers came to me when I heard of friends breaking up. Even for myself... Yet, I had a shock when I saw one relationship that broke, one that I thought was going to last forever. Its weird considering how I remembered everything from 4 years ago that I did / didn't do. I wish each of them well.
新鸳鸯蝴蝶梦 - 黄安
由来只有新人笑
有谁听到旧人哭
爱情两个字 好辛苦
是要问一个明白
还是要装作糊涂
知多知少难知足
Yup, I'm definitely bitter. Still, I don't think I have given up relationships. I do believe that I have a better picture with each relationship I go through. With each relationship there is something that I could take away from. Hopefully, I'll complete the picture soon enough.
_______________________________
I discovered this after watching Scrubs, Season 5 Episode 13 "My Five Stages". Something that I actually find to be true (at least for me). Depression, Acceptance.
I've just realized that I'm not anywhere close to that.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Lie.
Everyone has lied in their lives. I would be lying right now if I said that I didn't lie. But if, and only if, that you know in your entire life, that you never lied, I applaud you. It is hard to not lie in this cruel/hostile world.
They say honesty goes a long way in a relationship, be it with your mum or girlfriend or wife. Yet, for me, I find that I lie more towards these people than others. Every time that I feel that I didn't meet their expectations, or I let them down, or I didn't do something I promised. Yet, more often than not it backfires. Ironic, huh,they are the ones you don't want to hurt the most.
No I am not a saint, or even trying to explain why I do it. It isn't right, it always isn't.
I've made up my mind a long time ago not to lie to the people I cared about. Yet, more and more I find myself not caring about things around me. And if you don't care anymore, you won't be upset that you've disappointed someone. Then you won't need to lie.
They say honesty goes a long way in a relationship, be it with your mum or girlfriend or wife. Yet, for me, I find that I lie more towards these people than others. Every time that I feel that I didn't meet their expectations, or I let them down, or I didn't do something I promised. Yet, more often than not it backfires. Ironic, huh,they are the ones you don't want to hurt the most.
No I am not a saint, or even trying to explain why I do it. It isn't right, it always isn't.
I've made up my mind a long time ago not to lie to the people I cared about. Yet, more and more I find myself not caring about things around me. And if you don't care anymore, you won't be upset that you've disappointed someone. Then you won't need to lie.
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