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Chapter 5.3

I'm fallen into a lull, I know what I want to write but... I don't really know how to go about doing it.

These days I've been meeting friends, doing chores, packing, meeting friends., learning to drive. I guess I want to make my life as productive as I can.

I was looking through the photos I've taken, well, those that I still have all these years. Pictures of places I've been, food I've eaten... and most importantly people I've met and loved.

It was then I realize just how fragile relationships can be, and no, I'm not even talking about love.

Friends that were with you a year ago might be accquaintances now. People that call you their "best friend" might not answer your messages. There are people who just fade out simply because of the distances between them and you. People move on, including me.

Regardless, I've made some shitty choices and in turn burnt a lot of bridges. Most of them was me being scared and running away from them, that was my defense mechnism from people that I couldn't face anymore.

For that, I'm sorry.


I like to think that I've done all I wanted to do, at least those I can think of.

Up the CN tower, watched a few Blue Jays games, watched one Raptors game, watched no leafs game, went to lakeshore, went to Eaton centre, stood outside the AGO, went to chinatown, went to koreantown (yonge & finch), laughed at the thought of going to the children's musuem.

Failed a course, 100 a course, 80 a course playing Pokemon in the back. Not paying a library fine for 2 years. Overnight in DC, overnight in MC.


I thank all my friends, my close friends, my accquaintances.



Tomorrow marks the start of something new. 5 chapters, 5 years.

See you guys on the other side.

Quiet

There are times when you want to find peace and quiet but just can't find the place.

Now that I'm here, there isn't anything left for me to sit there and brood over.

I'm left with decisions I've made, decisions I can't change.


"有时候, 有时候, 我会相信一切有尽头, 相聚离开都有时候, 没有什么会永垂不朽."

"走吧, 走吧, 人总要学着自己长大, 走吧, 走吧, 人生难免经历苦痛挣扎."


呵呵, 最后还是回想起老歌...



我在这里 08/05/2010 Lake Louise. 天气晴.

Timezone 2

I woke with sleepy eyes.

It was 4:30. Not a normal time to wake up by any imagination.

I made my way through the train cars, people were still asleep, wrapping up their dreams. I crept pass them carefully. No way I was waking them up and let them realize what I was going to do.

It is dark when I got to the dome car. Storm clouds was looming over. I could see a little glimmer of red at the horizon, thankfully I was not late.

I was worried though, lightning was flashing quickly in the clouds... and then it began to rain.

Ugh, I woke up for nothing.


As quickly as the rain started it stopped. The clouds were moving faster than I thought.

That red turned into bright orange, bright yellow, the clouds were colored gold. As the sun rose on my right, I looked to my left, where darkness was beginning to fade. By now, the clouds was ruining someone else's morning

I could see water towers, houses, gas stations. We should be nearing Edmonton by now.


I yawned, 5:30 was the time. I couldn't take it anymore, as I made my way back, the sun had woken up some people, most of them elderly.


Muhaha, I thought to myself with an evil laugh, and went straight back to sleep.

Timezone 1

A full 24hrs later, we left one timezone for another.

I'm sitting in the dome, enjoying the sunset, and the peacefulness of it all.

Here there is nothing, no people, no towns, no cars, just trees, nature, lakes, blue skies and the sunset.
Ah yes the sunset...

Our train races forward on the track, moving ever so close to Winnipeg. As if it was racing backwards in time, trying to fight for the passengers, a little more time to view the sunset, just a little more before darkness envelopes us. But then again, it knows, darkness will come.


The sky darkens.

And the world... the world opens up.

Stars pop out. The moon says hi through the reflections off the water surface and plays hide and seek through the trees.

I wish I could capture all of this in a picture, but to no avail, be it the glass dome reflecting off the lights, or the not up to snuff photo sensitivity on my camera.

This moment, I wish I could be on the train for a long time, I'm not heading towards a vacation, I'm on it right now.

一些杂物 v 3.0

上海家里的狗狗, 聪聪.


情
当你开始在乎他/她对你的看法, 他/她已钻进你的心了.

路上看到的情侣装
女: 我买东西你买单
男: 你买东西我买单

两个人旅游是增进感情
一个人是去散心

看到一个眼睛哭肿的女孩在街上走着... 再走走, 发现后面远远跟着一个男孩, 不敢靠近.

有朋友问我怎么才是真真忘了一个人.
我想了想, 忘记一个人, 最后忘记的是他/她的背影.
以此推类, 记得一个人, 开始记得的是他/她的背影.

男人是装, 装作无所谓, 装的若无其事. 越痛就越装, 越装也越痛, 恶性循环.


别的
(关于房价)
我:"我想到我要买房了, 估计要买到杭州去了"
妈:"杭州也很贵, 我看你买要买到昆山旁边去了"
我:"..."