Saturday, February 20, 2021

Quotes

"But I met someone. And she's helped. And now I want to stay clean. And shit! Maybe that's... Maybe that's me being selfish. And Ali just scared the shit out of me because he told me that it wasn't gonna last. And, fuck, you know what? Maybe you're right. But I really, really, really, hope you're wrong."

- Rue (Euphoria / '03 Bonnie and Clyde)

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"Everything that's good to you ain't always good for you."

- Miss Marsha (Euphoria / Trouble Don't Last Always)

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"I can survive just fine without you, you know. But...  there’s a chance that life can be a little less mundane with you in it."

....

"OK, come on. Let's see if we blow up and die."

- Sarah (Palm Springs)

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"Closure is really for you you know. There isn't anything on the line for the other person."

- Some jackass I know


Sunday, February 14, 2021

Pomelo

 Looking out the window, people at the skating rink are leaving. It is getting late, isn't it.

A thought suddenly pops into his head... huh that's weird. Why is this thought suddenly coming up, and why is there an urge to speak it.

Throughout the night there's been a lot of conversations going on, a lot of talking, a lot of understanding and heartfelt feelings.

It's beginning to turn into a word vomit, like something you can't stop any longer.

He looked down at the bowl of pomelo, at the can of beer that's been consumed.

Rationally, there's absolutely no reason why this needs to come up now. There is a plan for everything... there's a plan.

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What is a plan?

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Heart pounding now.

He looked up, looks at her, and said: "I still like you."

Monday, February 8, 2021

后来的我们 / Us & Them

I never thought to watch this movie when it first came out. Though because of Hebe Tien (田馥甄)'s song in the OST that I already knew about this film. I believe it was Netflix's first distribution of a film made in China.

Though this was before I saw who directed this film. Rene Liu (刘若英), and this is her directorial debut. If that name rings any bell, she sang a lot (read a lot) of ballads in the late 90s and early 2000s that are must sings in the KTV. Particularly this song 后来.

I mean, I got 2 hours to burn.

The entire film is split into two parts, the flashback sequences, which were set in the 90s, and the present year set in 2018.

It follows two people. Lin Jianqing (played by Jing Boran 井柏然) and Xiaoxiao Fang (played by Zhou Dongyu 周冬雨) as they make their way to Beijing from their fictional hometown of Yaojiang Town. Though from the looks of the setting, looks to be up north east (东北). 

Curiously, it is the flashback that is in color, while the present is presented in B&W. Like... what's happening in the present is something that shouldn't have happened, a dream, a sidestory, a forgotten part.

The main actors play both their young and old characters, but just from the basis of their actual age, are more natural in the flashbacks than their "old" counterparts. The "old" taps into their acting chops and present a more mature, more practical part of their lives.

Special shoutout goes out to the father of the Jianqing, played by Zhuangzhuang Tian). He does not have many scenes in the movie, though that final scene will tug at your heart strings.

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These two lines from the film:

"如果当时你没走,后来的我们,会不会不一样"

"如果当时你有勇气就上了地铁,我会跟你一辈子"

 Netflix Translation:

"If you didn't leave at that time, would it make any difference to our relationship?"

"If at that time, you had the courage to get on the subway train, I would've stayed with you forever."

When I first heard that, I didn't read too much into it. It just sounded like regrets on top of regrets, a load of "What-ifs".

Later while listening to Eason Chen's main title song: 我们 that I saw the following YouTube comment, and everything clicked into place.

"这可能就是男人跟女人的区别:你若安好便是晴天,我什么都没有,真不敢上火车,怕你将来陪着我受苦;女的更想看到男人的态度跟决心,希望能勇敢地爱,你踏出这一步,上了地铁,我会跟你一辈子。"

Self Translate: 

"This might be the difference between man and woman: While you are happy and contented, I have nothing. I really do not have the courage to get on that train, afraid you will follow me and live a terrible life; Meanwhile, she wants to see the attitude and determination in him, hope that he love without any doubts or fear. Hence, if you make this step and get on the subway train, I will follow you for the rest of our lives."
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Thursday, February 4, 2021

Creek

 He walked with her, through the mud, to get to the small creek.

"Jump in"

"No you go"

There was a log nearby, they sat down. He took out a snack to eat. 

It was dry and it sucked up all of his saliva. He hurriedly took out the plastic bottle from his bag and chugged the water.

"I know of someone that recently broke up."

"Oh?"

"Yeah the person I was telling you about before"

"Right..."

"Maybe I should introduce you two, cause you're both now single"

He didn't know what to make of it.

Sunday, January 3, 2021

伤痕 - 林忆莲 / Scars - Sandy Lam

From her 1992 album Love Sandy.

伤痕

Verse
夜已深 还有什么人
让你这样醒着数伤痕
为何临睡前会想要留一盏灯
你若不肯说 我就不问
只是你现在不得不承认
爱情有时候是一种沉沦
让人失望的虽然是恋情本身 
但是不要只是因为你是女人

Bridge
若爱得深 会不能平衡
为情困 磨折了灵魂
该爱就爱 该恨的就恨
要为自己保留几分

Chorus
女人独有的天真
和温柔的天分
要留给真爱你的人
不管未来多苦多难
有他陪你完成
虽然爱是种责任
给要给得完整
有时爱美在无法永恒
爱有多销魂 就有多伤人
你若勇敢爱了 就要勇敢分

Scars

Late at night, who is still
Keeping you awake counting scars
Why keep a light on before going to sleep
If you refuse to answer, I won't ask
But now you have to admit
That sometimes love is a deep void
While disappointment may come from the relationship itself
But don't blame it on being a woman

If the love is deep, can't keep a balance
Stuck in love and torture the soul
Should love then love, should hate then hate
Got to keep some for yourself

A lady's unique naiveness
and her natural sweetness
should be left to someone that truly loves you
No matter how tough and treacherous the future is
He will be there accompanying you
Although love is a kind of responsibility
When you give you give unconditionally
Sometimes love is beautiful because it can't be eternal
However much love can be bewitching, it can hurt that much as well
If you're brave enough to love, then you need to be brave enough to split